Love of My Life?
She was a new girl to me, a day before she never existed
I seen her the first day of tenth grade, mind full of serious intentions
The repped the same style I did, but she was’nt interested
The end of school on the bus ride home
She asked where her stop was, I told her but let her walk alone
Later I found out it was far from close
Than I remembered it was 7 blocks away
Than it finally hit me, she was my homeboys lady
We started talkin more, the convos were nice
Than she mentioned her man, I was envious and enticed
To ask her on a date and she did’nt refuse
Charlie had dissed her or so the story goes
A few weeks later I heard the news
They had sex, I felt nervous like I was abused
Soon it was like Information about charlie was all of my use
The next time I saw her, she was’nt as nice
You can tell she was sad by the look in her eyes
She was cryin for a long long time
What he took from her was sugar and spice
Months later she told me what they had
A deep long relationship, so of course she was sad
I told her be strong and never give up
Theres always somebody for someone so we hooked up
Things were good for the first eight months
Loving and hugging is all that there was
Not knowing what lay ahead in the future
Took it all for granted, but always said I loved her
Start of eleventh grade things went wrong
I started to get moody, felt confined but still felt strong
Told her I did’nt want this much, damn I was flawed
did’nt want this much responsibility and attention
Should have known, you need that with this kind of relationship
I wish I knew that way back than
She was special to me, she was my loyal bestfriend
Situation was like this for the next two years
I felt in control of another persons life
I was so stupid and soon came by biggest fears
Never thought that I’d feel like this
For her I cried, oh god what did I miss?
I’m in her place now with the memories and tears
Why was’nt I there for her when she was lost and scared
When the tables turn you feel so helpless
Wanna go back to the very first day you met this, beautiful person
And say how much you’re sorry for the future and the unintentional diss
Lesson learned, don’t take for granted someone elses love and heart
It will come back to you 10 times harder and tear you apart
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