Love Poem: Loving Defiance
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Written by: Gerald Dillenbeck

Loving Defiance

Punishing for revenge,
could this occur to natural systems
without capacity to imagine alternative futures?

Punishing others for their defiant behavior,
actions and words stronger than ignorantly ignoring,
bolder than merely angry with Other 
and our defenseless selves

But how much more
to accurately measure fair consequences
for words of anger
compared to more aggressive, too often violent,
defiance?

If I had never been a victim of another's vengeance,
bullying,
violence of word and deed,
intent and practice to exercise power of revenge
against a defiant world,
including my own mind v body,
however unwittingly, 
impersonally, 
would all defiance in my life
calm down into more generic anger
about fear of not win/win co-invested living 
while win/lose divesting alone,
haunting dreams of chronic claustrophobic stress?

Perhaps reactive defiance 
ruminates becoming who I really am together,
not falling apart,
but doesn't look right through Other's vengeance lens 
of win/win opportunity v. win/lose risk.

A resisted mark becomes another punished victim
growing disturbingly defiant,
on strong days 
and depressed
in wronged dark nights.

Unhealthy
uncaring
chronically unsystemic win/lose trauma
echoing post-partum critical stress disorder
and fear of Ego's relentlessly alone demise
predicting total lose/lose 
of mind/body sensory win/win co-passion,
loss of love co-arising SafeLove and HealthyLife,
CoPresent TransParent Intention,
Communicant of InEx-Formating NeuroMemory Strains
trains
trends
brains
frames
planes.

If no defiant anger experience,
then no punishing revenge anticipation.
If no revengeful lack of healing win/win mercy,
then no fear-filled win/lose anxiety,
opening each moment's life
to love's new-mind/old-body 
reconnecting liberating/conserving possibilities.

Earth's sacred empire of nations and tribes,
species of benign flashmobs 
and cooperatively co-infested klans,
invested in healing my win/win
vulnerably TransParenting anxiety 
about Other's 0-sum win/lose fears.

Evil intent and opaque competitions 
invoke suboptimized body health
and mind wealth 
by divesting of win/win symbiotic creolization,
settling for angry win/lose management

UnFaithing nondual co-arising health 
sacred wealth regeneration trends
for all Earth's Tribes

Unvoiced panentheistic worship
of NotNot HumaneNatural NeuroSystems, 
Universal MonoTheistic MindLight
and Unitarian PolyVagal BodyPower
curiously resilient enough
to retain
and heal
resonant win/win compassion,
both endo-
and ecto-symbiotic
restorative peace-warrior systems.

An empirically deductive-reductive historical culture
falls defiantly LeftBrain/RightWing dominant apart,
angryMind win/lose systemically traumatized

BodyAfraid to open unoccupied sacred space 
for sufficient co-empathic nondual love,
peacefully interdependent governance
mutually subsidiary 
co-mentoring balanced communion
restoring peace of cooperative ego/ecosystems
over anthro-privileged 
colonizing 
political-economic unhealth
uncare
unsystems,
designing and developing merciful justice 
as active pay win/win forward 
TransParently vulnerable peace.

Tyranny of angry voices
frightening gods and destiny
fading before Great Transition Bodhisattva 
singing/dancing 
voicing/choicing
thinking/acting
compassion/co-pleasing
Mind/Body Warriors

Finding good AuthenticYang/Yintegral humor 
in mutual co-existing 
on EarthMother panentheistic HolyHost,
serving nutritiously decomposting manna
to all polyculturally robust system-models
aspiring toward multiculturally wealthy outcomes

Fearless BiCameral 
song and dance Occupiers
filled with nuclear-neural folding and unfolding 
prefolding and refolding
regeneratively-timed fractal theistic virus

Benign merger messages 
of deductive/inductive 
mind/body co-empathic 
YangUniversal/YinUnitarian
ego/eco-balance,
like breathing in and out
to produce healthier and safer win/win outcomes 
than win/lose anthro-supremacist revenge,
followed by more monoculturing defiance, etc.

Revenge breeds oppositionally unhealthy defiance
as vulnerable forgiveness 
and zero-greed ego/eco-investments
breed co-arising love/live 
mind/body nutritional prosperity
protected by healthy natural/spiritual constitutions

Forgiving HisStory's oppositional defiance,
whether personal or political,
whether endo-economic or ecto-environmental,
predicts optimal revenge
of co-passioning anger and unpleasured fear
as they co-mentor our TransParent selves,
cells,
systemic frames of trauma v therapy communion time,
both healthy universal day 
and wealthy unitarian night 
bicamerally panentheistic.