Memories
I’m forgetting how to drag these worthless thoughts
Through broken and grasping fingertips.
Empty is my mind, and yet
I struggle to rip away the strangling
Emotions that leave me breathless.
Repugnantly my contention simply dissipates
with the thought of you.
Memories of what was and what is
clash like fire and ice.
It burns more than anything imaginable.
I franticly search through the convex parts of my mind
hoping to find relief.
Abhorrently I find none.
The feelings that I worked so hard to get rid of
come back.
Memories and faded Love breaks
through the barricade I work so hard to build
and all that I am abruptly
turns into all that I was.
I scream as the memories pierce into
the place that took so long to heal.
The place where abandonment
and pain are still fresh.
The place that once openly held
Love, Trust, comfort and......
A heart.
Now holds nothing but pain sorrow and regret.
Alone I am, yet not
The memories are here to keep me company.
Your promise is here to give me the reminder of
your lies and your touch is here to give me pain.
Vivid they are, yet so faded
each kiss is a bite
each touch is a punch
each word is fire and ice.
But this isn't what angers me the most
This isn't what brings all the pain.
The fact that you're still here.
The fact that despite all my best efforts
to Forget you I can't.
Despite all the pain,
All the lies.
What angers me the most is the fact that
I still Love you.
I forgot how to drag these worthless thoughts
through, broken and grasping fingertips
Just as I forgot how not to Love you.-
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