Moment of Weakness
I had a moment of weakness
And the tears came on suddenly
I was afraid they'd feel like they used to
Back in that place that I didn't want to be
I thought the worst of my healing was over
Water under the bridge, we'd made amends
But when the intensity of that moment enveloped me
It gave me doubts about where I had been
I allowed the emotion to wash through me
Conscious self-care, again, my true best friend
I needed some gentle space between us
A restful nap was like a Godsend
It's not that you did anything wrong
You are single, free to do as you please
And as much as I'd like things to be different
My struggle is me, remembering my place
I don't expect you to understand
I don't want you to feel sorry for me
It's just that you are the reason
When my emotions get the better of me
Maybe it took this moment of weakness
To remind me there's still work to be done
That the process of healing is not linear
And not to discredit about how far I've come
Yes, my healing heart is still tender
It needs to repair one moment at a time
Allow tears to shed some perspective
Embrace my weakness as grace in disguise
January 17, 2021
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