Mourning and Rejoicing
For Sonny, my late husband and my love for 30 years
I never knew just how empty life could be,
Until the day you could no longer be with me.
The house is so empty without your voice.
I know your leaving was not your choice.
All of those little things you used to do
Are left undone, since I am without you.
I can not understand why I was left to cry.
Why did you go? Why did you die?
Broken hearted and lonely in our empty room,
Sitting alone and wanting you in the gloom.
Feeling so sorry for myself will not change things.
I must consider what this change for you brings.
No more pains in your body today.
No more watching you wither away
No more dialysis three times a week,
Keeping you alive, but making you weak.
No more needles and hospital stays,
No more living in a drug induced haze.
You have gone to a land of no sorrow or pain
To live with the Lord in his radiant reign.
To a land where you live in an endless day,
Where the glory of God lights the way.
I would not want you back on earth in pain,
Living as you did and watching life drain
From your tired body and weary heart.
Even though it means we must be apart.
I must look heavenward even though I will miss
The love in your eyes and the warmth of your kiss.
So at this Christmas time, my love, I must say
I am glad you are in heaven on His birthday.
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