My First Son
You just came into this world cold and bleak of your father/
But you made my life mean even more ever since your sister my baby daughter/
You make life upon soul as a man out in the desert that needs water/
I'm a full-time daddy now so there is no room for my mistekes to let me faulter/
I know I ain't the best daddy in the world son but I will do my best
I know alcohol can bring me down but son you just being born makes me want out this mess/
I want something better for you than me when you are ready to leave daddy's little nest/
I sometimes just sit here and watch your sweet little stomach go up and down with every breath/
You are so innocent and I am so guilty of being a sinner/
I'm working on being a saint but how can I when all I do is let alchol be my only winner/
My addiction gets thicker as my liver and kidney's continue to get thinner/
I just want to be able to support you son with clothing, a home and an every night dinner/
I love you son, I really do/
So I must help myself past these self-made lies and do what is right and true/
I'm still an alcoholic and addict in a crazy rez life game where I always seem to lose/
But with your birth I can start anew/
I got big time father responsibilities now to where it will forever affect the choices that I choose/
You my first and only son/
As of now your my only one/
I look forward to our times of hardship and the times when we have fun/
I was at a slow walking pace but because of your birth it got my mind on the run/
In LOVE you NOW and FOREVER because your My First Son.
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