My Friend Is Lost, My Heart Is Broke
in a room I lay with you invading my thoughts
I cant seem to get you out of my head
I know I should let go and move forward
But It eats me to think I lost my only friend.
I cant bring myself to cry
nor do I know how to get closure
I don't want to let go of you
but reality is, it has been over.
I didn't care if you hurt me
because at least you were there
pride no longer a factor
and I know you really cared.
It became a chore to stay away
that is what u needed at the time
I tried to be there regardless
because I was the happiest when at ur side.
I never could grasp the reason
or what I did so wrong to you
I felt like I understood and It was okay
but at the end of the day, it wasn't i u'd choose.
Understanding on a verbal contract
but I wasn't the one who left
I get why you did the things you did
but u didn't get, for you i wanted only the best.
well, now I am here and you there
as I have come to peace with whats real
I know I have to be at a distance for now
need time for my heart to heal
I am still your friend, that won't ever change
but I have to go on with my life
you told me from the beginning but I chose not to listen
and I can say that with you I honestly tried.
tried to love and never judge
although things made me feel like I wasn't good enough
Maybe I was to deep into my heart
and I was mistaken our arrangement
for something it never was………
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