My Last Name
When it came to love I would always act strange
younger me messed up with an amazing girl
I'm sorry for all of the past pain
I've only just realised you were the girl I should have married and gave my last name
You came to me when I was too young to understand love
I was wrong and I hold my hands up
I was distant and unavailable emotionally
I was scared anytime you got too close to me
I had old wounds still bleeding that I tried to hide from you
it scarred me more to know I wasn't able to be by the side of you
I didn't have much confidence and didn't feel like I deserved you
I was so busy crying over my own pain I was unable to see you were hurt too
I pushed you away when I really wanted to pull you close
I wish I was one of those who was full of hope
But I was carrying so much baggage from my childhood
I didn't know I was supposed to put those down while in love
I wish we met now instead because I feel we belong tog.. I shouldn't say that
I think we have unfinished business, now I have the abilities I used to lack
It sucks when you meet the right girl at the wrong time
When your heart realises this, for it to heal it will take a long time
I see you've got a new man and you look happier than ever
That's all I want, I was a fool for not having your smile be the one I treasured
But I can't go back, I can only accept what is and hold my hands up
I didn't appreciate how amazing you were, but I realise now because I've started to understand love
All I can do is apologise for the way I acted when I was young
Unable to express or show love due to scars that were on my heart
I didn't know you were trying to heal them and give me a new start
But now I've grown up and it's too late, I've realised you were the one
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