Love Poem: My Realization
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Written by: Shahana Jackson

My Realization

FUTURE)
It rained so hard the day 
I finally gave up on us
I barely remember that day
I barely remember your face
Yet memories of your touch still remains

PAST)
July 13
A panic so uncontrollable
because I was meeting you for
 the first time 
I was so afraid to love again
I just hoped it would work out this time

FUTURE)
I hate you and all the lies you told
Yet without your embrace I feel kind of cold
You took my innocence away and walked out the door
You left me feeling empty and wondering
If I did something wrong

PAST)
Sinking 
I've never felt this happy
since the day we met my life has been 
filled with joy and smiling
I never want to let go
god you smell so good

FUTURE)
You were being distant
less phone calls
short text messages
The tender way you touched me
was becoming rough
You became more demanding
I forsaw the ending approaching

PAST)
August 2
It was a tuesday when I let you
take it away
I've never felt so relieved
yet so torn about my decision
At the same time I wanted you to love me
and make love to me like this forever

FUTURE)
After the first time it was all you could think about
there was no more cuddling
you wanted my body and my heart came in 5th place
to all your other hobbies
I felt used.

PAST)
Sometimes I wonder if you don't care anymore
I've never been this scared to lose 
someone like this before
It feels like the same cycle again 
why does love continue to avoid me
I'm not happy with this trend

FUTURE) 
It rained so hard the day
I finally gave up on us
I barely remember your face anymore
But my heart will never forget you
cause undeneath the bandaid
the bleeding scar that's trying to heal
                   is your fault.

MY OUTCOME)
ON THE OUTSIDE I'M BEYONCE
 SINGING TO THE LEFT TO THE LEFT 
ON THE INSIDE I'M DEFLATING 
THIS IS JUST ANOTHER SCAR
THEY MAY NEVER MEND
THIS IS MY REALIZATION