Never Really Here
How do I say farewell
to somebody who wasn't ever really here
Oh his body laid around on the couch
and occasionally tried to touch my mouth
But the man was never here
How do I say goodbye
deep inside my heart
When his presence never existed
as love does when it starts
Saying it's better to be friends
when a true friend, I wouldn’t want as him
Not a truth found within his soul
or that passed over his teeth
A weight has been lifted
knowing he's out of my house
Out of my life
for I don't need his lies
Threatening me not to return
Oh, how I sighed with pressure released
I found he wasn't the kind of man I need
An understatement indeed
Where was his honor, he knew not the word
Integrity he had never heard
He knew the meaning of the word lie
but couldn't admit even one
Infidelity, no one would want him for his mind or body
So he gorged on attention
from every female source
I wasn’t enough to end that course
Never meeting, but always communication
constantly trying to draw some woman in
To this web of deception, I hardly understand
He had me here waiting, with flowers in hand
Looking back, I was just needing a man to love
and to be somebody’s number one
But found out soon, it was never me he loved
Oh, he'll keep trying his games on others
But I'm content, to sit alone and write
For words are my true lover
I've never been married, except to my books
But it wasn't for my lack of looks
Humble scribbler I must be, having a heart to be broken
but tis only my soul that must shine
Forget about warm embraces, I find them but a trap
Its enough to romanticize a touch
and dream of passions long ago
Just writing them down, make them seem to not want to go
That can sustain me
for another 40 years
or maybe a year or so!
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