Never There
How far would I go,
Just to find peace for my soul?
I wander here and there,
I feel as though I have been every where.
Too restless to stay, too sad to go.
Could some one please show me what I am looking for?
I find things to love in every place I live.
But none of them compare to the feeling of home.
I used to feel that way when I waded in the rivers back west.
I felt that way in the heat so very far south.
But the feeling never stays long,
And before you know it I am gone again.
I once felt safe, and happy.
In a house some would say was shabby.
But it was the man inside the walls that made it feel warm and inviting.
His eyes where blue like the ocean,
I still feel my heart is broken.
Because I left even him,
This cycle I cannot break.
If only I could just stay in one place.
And now my nightmares remind me of whose face I ache for.
Please, God, tell me what I am searching for?
Why do I keep losing the ones I love?
Why can I not be content with what I have?
Instead I wander,
Never knowing why or where.
But no matter what I do, or where I go,
You are never there.
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