No Show
I don't fit into your circle, I didn't want to try out for your band,
Because I would rather not be labeled, I hope you understand,
I didn't want all that extra attention,
All I wanted was a simple life of love and inspiration,
If only you truly knew,
That I stepped up just for a moment to prove,
With courage and compassion, allowing vulnerability to show,
In an atmosphere where fear of worthiness just wouldn't let go,
The fear of rejection stood out like a sore thumb,
Countless others left or decided to play dumb,
Privately approached by so many,
I asked God why this sat on my heart so heavy,
The pain in my heart made me cry,
It opened my eyes to the fear inside,
The outside looked like a white washed tomb,
Clean as a whistle with an unblemished view,
It was always about strength and how not to be defeated,
The steps you should take to prevent from being mistreated,
Calculated and too careful was not freedom to me,
It held me back from who God made me to be,
Careful is wise, don't get me wrong,
But too much creates intimidation to sing your song,
There were moments God allowed me to get up and sing,
The purpose and intent meant so much more to me,
When I had to step down, I still went back there to pray,
Because the purpose and the love I have for them never went away,
This meant more to me than you'll ever know,
That passion, that calling wasn't a show.
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