Not Today
It has been a while
since I’ve sat down to write.
It just has seemed lately,
that nothing has gone quite right.
There are so many emotions
streaming through my head.
I can't seem to control them,
so many things were left unsaid.
I let you into a place
few have ever been.
But after what you did
the line you are walking is thin.
I thought I could trust you
what a silly girl I was.
In the end you hurt me
like every guy always does.
Fool me once shame on you.
Fool me twice shame on me.
I feel so stupid
the real you I didn't see.
You made me believe
you weren't like the rest.
But in the end you turned out
worse than I could have guessed.
I tried to see the good in you
and I did for some time
how could I have been so silly
to think maybe you could be mine.
I really can't believe
that I fell for your tricks.
There is simply no denying,
good and evil just don't mix.
I feel so stupid
that I could not see,
what a jerk you really were
and absolutely wrong for me.
I should have listened
to what all my friend said.
“He's no good, watch out,”
but I couldn’t get you out of my head.
I guess they were right
that is so hard to admit.
You had me in a choke hold
like a drug I couldn't quit.
It has been hard
not thinking about you,
but now I understand
it is the right thing to do.
I'm done wasting my time
on someone who isn't there.
I don't need you in my life,
I need somebody who cares.
So this is my final goodbye
I think I can finally say.
I deserve so much better.
I won’t be thinking about you today.
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