Nothing Works
i accept i cant call you my own,
and i know you aren't obligated to me..
but on some days, nothing works..!
no philosophy or beliefs,
no amount of alcohol,
no crying under the blanket..
NOTHING!
the void left behind ,
just crawls up unawares,
making my chest heavy,
and my eyes dewy..
and all i want is for you to come back!
somehow, Just Come Back!
to quell my rising anxiety,
i create a temporary haze of happiness..
i dreamily wonder,
what if we were still together,
what if the timing hadn't been bad..
what if we had tried just a little bit more...
what if...
what if...!
and even as the innumerable probabilities twirl in my mind,
i realize i'm creating just a fictitious world,
that holds a guarantee of nothing..!
but still i continue..
i continue because its the only delusional world,
where you and i are still together,
and because it is the only way to temporarily fill up the void left by you..
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