November 11th
I miss him so much
My friends tell me
It will all pass
That young love
Isn't ever real
That he never treated me right
But they never knew
What I did to him
He himself
Never knew
And never will know
I can't stop dreading these thoughts
I keep saying I don't care
But I do; I really can't stop
When he pushed I pulled
When I pushed he ran
He doesn't want it my way
I don't want it his way
The problem would stay if we do
It's just got to pass
Just give me a break already
There are those days where I forget
I forget what he did to me
Just so I could talk to him
It's pathetic how he used to call me
It's pathetic how I answered
I miss waking up to him
I hate missing him
He deserves a smart girl
A pure girl
An affectionate girl
She's just not me
And I'm all out of time
And I'm all out of motivation
They tell me I deserve the same
But they don't know that side of me
He's all I want
And all I've loved
And all I've truly hated
But this is the end
It's only the end, right?
I don't know how to learn
I don't know how to change
I don't know how to change my ways
I'll just stay here
While he moves on
And forgets all about me
I never am on time
We were young, we were dumb, we were drugged
I still don't wanna do it his way
No way in Hell am I gonna change
I just wanna know
I just wanna watch him go by
So I could finally forget
Oh, wait my phone's ringing
Oh, wait I answer
Oh, wait he's on my porch
Oh, wait he's back
Oh, no
Endless
Endless
Endless
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