Now It's Up To You
I don't understand what went wrong between us,
Or why our friendship is in such a fuss.
I told you I loved you and I do and always will,
And to get you to feel the same way again I would kill.
I know you don't love me and I'm over that now,
But you stabbed me in the back and I just don't see how.
How could you talk about me in that way?
I never expected it on any kind of day.
I thought you were different than all other friends,
And would be there for me in dark, thickened ends.
I guess I was wrong and what they say it true:
People never stay friends after their relationship is through.
I wish they were wrong and it was just a big lie,
Because you still mean the world to me and for you I would die.
Even though you don't love me and you hurt me so bad,
I still care about you and will never forget the love we once had.
I'm not begging for an apology or a reason why,
All I am asking you is for you to stop making me cry.
I want to be good friends with you and close just liked you promised me,
But right now it seems like that isn't even a possibility.
I really thought you were different and not like them at all,
I thought that you were the one that would catch me when I fall.
Wherever life takes us, whichever way our future goes,
I wish you the best of luck with whatever your future holds.
I hope to be in your future because I loved the times we hung out,
I never want to loose you-I know that without a doubt.
Even though you cut me deep, I will always look and smile at you,
Because you taught me many things that I never really knew.
You taught me how to love and you taught me how to trust,
You also taught me how to deal when everything just busts.
Before I met you I was totally lost in a world all of my own,
It felt like I was trapped in a deep, dark, empty hole.
Then there was you who changed my life completely,
And for that I thank you immensely.
I have no regrets and loved every moment spent with you,
I just wish you only knew.
I wish you only knew how I feel right now compared to how things were.
It seems like we are now only acquaintances and "friend" is just a word.
I have shed so many tears-each one a cry for help,
But in the end I have found myself standing by myself.
So I guess I'm saying thank you for the times you were there for me,
And letting you know that I enjoyed every memory.
But now I guess it's fading and there's not much more I can do,
I've tried so hard to change it, but now it's up to you.
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