Once Upon a Hundredth Time Pt 3
We all I say things that we don't mean- sometimes lack consideration.
But once those things are recognized-
(shouldn't) we seek reconciliation?
The truth of that, it lies within-
the depth of someones love.
And value comes unveiled-
when hardships shared, come push to shove.
So if one, of the two souls-
should find itself astray.
It should be very evident-
the steadfast soul should walk away.
So why is it my habit-
to try and justify his wrongs?
One minute he's my bestfriend-
he next has stringing me along.
I want to make myself believe-
that it's influenced by substances.
Or likely it is driven-
by untreated mental illasses..
260 days so far-
and the light we share is dimming.
But I also know, myself,-
that it takes time to promote healing.
A fine line now presents it self-
which I've had to face before.
Is staying here enabling? -
or should I wait just a little more?
See I seek such answers-
in hopes I'll do more good than harm.
But I'm breaking my own boundaries-
not even seeing just how far.
So then I feel a disconnect-
a skewed view of reality.
Resulting in my mind-
regressing to insanity.
So now, I too, lash out-
and question "Am I being fair?"
Pressure coming from all sides-
in ways my brain can't bear.
I too have offered safety-
and endlessly offered my help.
But now, I see our failures-
are 'cause we fail to help ourselves.
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