Pain
I hope you make it by yourself.
I’m at a point whereby pointing fingers won’t help anymore
A point whereby this vodka won’t help anymore
Sleeping pills won’t help anymore
I can’t fight anymore
Can’t start any war.
I can’t take back the hands of time, everything I put my hands get broken
Look what happened when I tried holding your heart.
This is not the life I wanted for both of us.
True I’m a man I get tempted but I haven’t laid a hand in any of those
Sometimes I wish I was blind so I wont see the seductive mini skirt boob showing woman who take selfies with me and share them with you just to destroy what we had, Trust me jealousy is the root of evil.And worse you trusted your friends over me.
Lately you posted a picture with same people and you said you over me
That’s okay though I got a bottle of overmeer
I guess its time I eat the great vines .
Time I look at my broken watch and it shows the wrong time
I tried calling you but a guy picked up guess it was the wrong time
That’s when the pain started really sinking in
The thought of you laughing kissing massaging cuddling with another guy
I couldn’t take it. My heart was in pieces my mind travelled to the same room and watched him as he stripped you naked and kissed you where I used to kiss you.
I heard you telling him He’s the guy of your dreams. Your movie star but now watch me live.
I don’t know if its me or you
You owe me
An explaination for this
Ive never cheated for the record
Ow Crap I cheated work for this record
On my way to record this record I cheated death
I wasn’t thinking straight the car was meandering the road
My heart beat was faster than the car I drove
I couldn’t even look straight my mind projected the scene of you and him
Not that I cant get another girl it’s just that she wont be beautiful smart and full of love as you
I guess I’m a fool of love as you. Full of love you could share it.like an app.
I wonder how many guys you have told they are the one
I thought I was the one but I didn’t know I wasn’t the only one.
Going to church doesn’t mean you the holy one.
You just fishing for the money I wonder why you don’t eat sushi
But who am I to tell you what to do who to love who to lie who to let in your pants without protection of your feelings whom am I to bother you with boring stories of love trust marriage and family whom am I to cross your mind just once hoping you will think about me. I’m not expecting you to think about me anyways
Sometimes I fail to think about me just to think about you.But the moment I think about you that’s how exactly I know you don’t think about me. So I’m pushing this thinking shit away
But not only the thinking. Put two and two together you will understand that the sum is four people who lost love and odde to heart breaks.
If you could listen one more
Those goodmorning goodnight text were not just to conform
Those I love you texts and calls were not just to conform
Those little gifts they might have been cheap also not just to conform
I was trying to show you I’m on form
A perfume for 365 Rands hoping you will smell good each day throut the year
True I am not romantic but hugging your from behind only to show you I got your back
While you got his back.Pack your backpack I got this back.
I will survive like I’ve always been with no one to love
Because I have learnt that to love someone is not the same as being loved
To love is to give your heart to someone and trust me they going to give it back full of unhealing wounds.
Love when you are ready to. Don’t let your friends tell you what’s good what’s bad for you. Be strong and stand your ground.
Ekse.
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