Painful Lessons In Love
There is always joy in pain
Lessons learnt and everything won’t be the same
But you drive me insane
Each time we try you’re always first to shift the blame
Jealousy strikes like it did with Cain
And I always have to sacrifice myself like they do for fame
You’ve lost your ability to appreciate me
I feel like I’m alone
I miss the way things used to be
Your heart is cold as stone
Your arms used to be my heaven, my home
Now it’s a ghost house, a place
where my existence is now unknown
Each night I cry and think of you
The love we had was true
But now you’ve become the pain I feel
We’ve lost the joy that we once knew
Maybe our hearts grew too fast
until they blew
And left no trace of our once new
love, not even a clue
I wish we could re-write what was
But I guess it’s not meant to be
Although we now walk separate ways
I’ll always treasure our memory
A memory that never fades away
A memory that makes me cry everyday
A memory that makes me smile everyday
A time when attention is all I could pay
I will never forget
I will never regret
You were part of my essence but now I’m destroyed
I’m trapped within the sorrows that your cold heart employed
Who am I to continuously
withstand the pain in this world
Who am I to fight against nature
I have learnt to breathe this pain
And let my body, heart and soul
adjust
I know that I will never be the same
But trying to move forward is a must
In my God I shall place my trust
May my sorrows be taken
The past turned to dust
My life once again mine to own…
I pray it happens soon
Before I turn into a monster
Heartless
Feeding off the pain of others
So they feel what I felt
So they feel the hand that to me was dealt
So they feel the loss of hope you made me feel
So fooled was I to think love could be real
I thought you were everything
For you I would kneel
But you only left me broken
Now I’m trying hard to heal
I never thought it’d be hard to feel
I never thought asking you to pay
attention was an expensive bill
It hurts to change, my eyes hurt
when this heartbreak became my
dawn
But the sun opened my eyes
And the only person I choose to give my all now
Is the one in the mirror.
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