Polarity
I love you so much, that
you can only disgust me now
All your flaws and red flags spark
crimson, like a seductive rose.
Gross and yet longing for your
body to seek for every blemish there
To point, prod and pinch deeper
with a gentle lover’s touch.
I loathe the time spent together
but weep miseries when we part
Knowing months will pass till I see you
with silence over missed calls, ringing.
Your humour is tedious and dry
yet, I feign chuckles at your puns
Seeing your eyes beam up with
joy thinking that I’m such a cool guy.
Not a Nice Guy- don't get me twisted
I just want you to feel seen, my dear
With my blank stare thinking of other women
whilst watching your plush lips, yearning.
Yielding. Every time my
heart beats with bitter ennui
A steady rhythm of no change
for I am mute to my one desire.
But I don't want to waste your time
cause my mouth stammers the words
“You down to smash?” I am, but I don't
want to be just that, but I need that.
Primal attraction, two dogs in heat
all fours, no rest, animalistic love
Fueled by desire, unbridled
unbound, and all uncaring.
I ache for the pillow talks of
irony and wit, our final peace.
I caress your damp hair singing
lullabies of our youth, till dawn.
I beg of you to crack my skull open
and watch me bleed out all these
Emotions I struggle to voice- freedom
the release beyond any orgasm.
I'm sorry that you have to deal with this
but I chose you, so it's your fault too
You entertained me for so long,
I never fathomed hurting you.
But I can, and I might… I probably will.
That's why my blood’s still running
I can't blame you for my feelings for you
I wish you didn't stay and watch me bleed.
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