Price of Life
The world sees me laugh during the day but don't see the tears I cry at night
Daily betrayal, Tears shed, blood spilled
Hate spreads and love kills
I guess that's the price of life
Loyalty is rare, I'm not sure if love still exists
Back stabbers everywhere, almost everyone is holding a knife
As a man I'm considered weak if I don't keep my emotions inside
This is so real even the numb will feel this
you can't hold on to old habits if you're creating a New you
Dated some of the most beautiful girls, been hurt by a few too
In order to move forward sometimes you have to take a step back
Isn't it funny how I found a new girl on the journey of trying to get my ex back
I'm repairing my heart and finally figuring out where my mind is
I had one night stands with girls I wanted to spend more time with
Pushed away girls who wanted to get close to me
Lost my dream girl because at the time I wasn't available emotionally
My anxiety forces me to play over all the mistakes I've made
5 years clean from self-harm, but I'm still judged for my scars from the blade
Most would cover up, but I put it all out there and let you see me naked
With how honest I am, you'd think I put my nudes on these poetry pages
I mentally blocked a lot of my childhood because everyday it hurt stronger
Taking a sip of this brandy while I think about my sperm donor
Died 5 days before I turned 15 and I haven't shed one tear
You chose alcohol over me, but finally my heart is free and head is clear
The world sees me laugh during the day but don't see the tears I cry at night
Daily betrayal, Tears shed, blood spilled
Hate spreads and love kills
I guess that's the price of life
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