Push
A nudge
A push
A shove
Seems like it’s all I know how to do
A wall once built so high crumbled down by your love
Now quickly re-erects and I crawl back to that safe haven
It’s a sanctuary I retreat to and hide behind when I am most vulnerable
I do not mean to push you away
My flaws
My insecurities
They sometimes get the better of me
Those are the times I need you most
When I push please don’t abandon me
Pull me into your embrace that is what I need
I know
I am complicated
An idiot you may call me
Pushing people away is the only way I know how to communicate the words
‘I need you now more than ever’
Please bear with me
I feel most and I care most
I do not push you away because I no longer need you
Sometimes I bear the burden just so you can find happiness
I love you enough to sacrifice my happiness for yours
To those who took their stand and found the will to stay even when I was unbearable
I am forever thankful
To those who left
I understand
I am sorry
Please do be happy….
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