Requiem of Gold and Silver
We've been taking potshots since December
And finally we snuffed out all the embers
You said you would never be the same again
I said I would never be the same again
Looks like we're both some filthy liars
Only difference is I haven't started new fires
I shouldn't be upset that you've healed so quickly
But the thought of you with someone else has me sickly
I've only missed you when it's midnight
Only with my regrets under the streetlights
I only miss the way you felt me, knew the real me
When I'm lying, I feel filthy
Looking at the sky, it's rich and golden
Then how come in this silver room, I'm frozen?
I knew from the start I did you dirty
Even when I was true I made you worry
I finally got the freedom that I wanted
The feeling of elation has been blunted
Not much to this world when it's all for me
But I know deep in my heart this is how it should be
Still I miss you when it's midnight
When my heart is heavy but my bed's light
And I miss the way you'd feel me, set my soul free
You'd trust me, I feel filthy
The thought of someone else with you is crushing
But I knew from the start you'd be blushing
With someone who's better for you on top
Pressing down while you moan out "please, don't stop"
I know you're much happier without me
I knew that's the way that it should be
The process of writing this is so selfish
When, to me, you've been nothing but selfless
Do I only miss the memory?
Every day I was with you was crushing
But I still miss the way you'd feel me, know the real me
And I ruined it, made it filthy
And it's better there without me, right?
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