Right There
I wake up
to a dark room
I look over
at an empty pillow
you were just here
silently sleeping
angelic
right there
sharing a dream with me
but now emptiness is all that remains
I sit up
bed springs groan
I glance around
the dark room is lit
by lightening from an approaching storm
rain begins to patter the roof
and there's no sign of you
but I can still smell your perfume
it lingers in the air
right there
right where you were
assuring me you're here
somewhere
I get up
cross to the bedroom door
I open it
and step into the living room
still searching
for you
my eyes scan the room
and finally light upon you
you're right there
where you always are
sitting on the window sill
watching the rain
you always loved the rain
I move next to you
the scent from your perfume grows stronger
I pick you up
and my arms fold perfectly
around your slender body
but you're cold
so cold
lightening flashes
and metal catches my eye
I read the engraving for the millionth time
Becky Gise
1991-2009
cremated by her own wishes
she was right there
and then she was gone
I cradle you in my arms
and walk back to the bedroom
I lay you down
on your pillow
next to me
where you should always be
my eyes close
and I begin to drift back to sleep
finally safe
finally content
because you're always
right here
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