Sincere Ap
SINCERE AP
I said I’m sorry or what was done
But I guess it wasn’t sincere because I’m being destroyed by the bitterness in
me.
Although I hide it with a smile, a joke, or laughter when in reality I’m continuously
in sorrow crying on the inside because I’ve cried so much my tears have become
dry and I programmed myself to make my tears go in reverse so I only cry on the
inside
Some days it’s easy to hide and some days it’s not
It’s like a cancer rapidly killing me mentally
It would be easier to be true if you didn’t give so many empty promises
If you talk to me and not at me
But I’m not occupied to judge
Just to forgive and ask for forgiveness
It’s just hard to forget
But I will stop trying to forget, so I can look out for the same thing from happening
since I was 7
A continuous cycle that has been going on
Yet I will dig deep in the black hole that I have formed with the bitterness that has
tried to consume my soul
And apologize:
For the lack of communication hiding my feeling
Excluding one of you like the brother of the prodigal son
And forgive:
For missed birthdays, your days, graduations, and communications
With saying this a ton has been lifted
Unfortunately it hasn’t been said so I maintain with the weight of this
unnecessary bitterness
Living life on the edge because tomorrow is promised to one and that one is no
me
So I’m endangered of dying in regret and without reconciliation of my
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TEACHERS
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