So Lost
I gave him my already wounded heart
And in return this devil finished it off now its apart
What hurts the most is that I’m so in love
This angel in disguise was not sent from above
And the lies trying to convince me there’s no one else
I yet still yearn to love him in so ashamed of my self
So hurt so lost inside eyes filled with tears
Lost him but him still having my heart is the biggest fear
How could I feel so damaged but still feel attached
Keep saying its ok and just please relax
Pity myself for feeling that I’m lost without him
He tells me its nothing so bad I want to doubt him
Feelings of so strong for him so hard to turn away
I cant leave I’m so lost that I want him to stay
I’m so lost and convinced that my life revolves around him
Hurting me so bad and yet I’m still glad I found him!
My true feelings of hate trapped in a door of love
Biggest nightmare worst dream that I’ve ever dreamed of
My appearance is that I’m happy but I’m filled with so much pain
Why has this happened to me what is there to gain?
Heart pitch black feels like I’m crying inside
Can things be the way they used to be please I’m dying inside!
And yet he acts as if its nothing…as if its all me
Cant he see everyday is worse on how this is hurting me
But still I remain just stuck in this shadow of hurt
I have no day’s just nights and its getting worse
I lay in shame at night all I think about is us
The more I think about it the more I’m in disgust
In disgust because of my feelings for him…its sad
How could I love someone that makes me feel so bad?
Why does he deny doing anything wrong?
Having to wait for him to call he never answers the phone
And to handle the situation all I do is cry
So scared to ask so I sit and wonder why
If I knew love amounted to this much I wouldn’t have ever paid the cost
Yet still I’m in love with him so hurt that I’m lost…
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