So Why?
So scared ive sat for hours
each day of this week
just thinking, maybe of the worst
ive prayed that this day, today
would never come
Today is his last day
the last day ill see him
schools over
he's leaving me behind
he has no choice this time
my hidden thoughts ramble in my brain
they scramble all sense of clarity
all i can think of is
im loosing him
i keep this behind frightened eyes
i want to crawl into his arms
and ask, maybe beg
..."when will i see you again?"
but this, this is something i cant even speak on
because we both dont know that answer
but he'll tell me "don't worry Boo. Soon"
or at least i think he will
Im making myself parinoid
wondering if he knows how i feel
why wouldnt he though?
ive never showed him otherwise
even though, he isnt mine
my girl chelsey
even she understands
that though he isnt mine
he's still my man
so she backs away
though she's crushing hard
because she knows
that noel is my world
forever it would take me
to tell him how i feel
a life time it would take me
just to TELL him how i feel
that these emotions
arent just tricks in my mind
that i will love him
for the rest of time
id die before
i even got to explain
before i got to show him
unless he made me shut up
by kissing me in the rain
im scared so bad
and im not so sure of what
i feel like im loosing my Boo
because we'll be out of touch
he'll be with his girl
and ill be in the next town
half an hour from his place
with no ride to go see him
why am i scared?
its not like hes mine
why am i scared?
its not like i wont see him another time
why am i scared?
because i want him so bad?
why am i scared?
and yet at his girlfriend im not mad
why cant i explain
to just walk up and tell him
that i love this boy
when to the world i want to yell it
he is my life raft
my life saver
he is all i need
and he's just the right flavor
so why?
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