Sos
Started innocently, with carefree laughter
One moment strangers but friends thereafter.
Slowly, I began to rely upon you.
Seeking an understanding heart, I hurried onward.
Once... no, never once did I stop to ponder.
Something was changing between us two.
So, without recognizing I became someone worth ridicule.
One person alone could tell me I was wanted, beautiful... wonderful.
Smart? ... No. Not that. For I dove into this hell.
Shuddering, I wonder who I have become -
One so reliant and desperate, I did succumb.
Silent tears fall as the past does swell.
Shame for forgetting no one person can fulfill me,
Only from the inside, from the Lord, can I be free.
So, no more! I try to shake off your chain.
Somehow I submit again, for I am weak and you are a known evil.
One that I cannot dare to leave without life upheaval.
Shall I forever be held captive? Always under your reign?
Should I carve you out of my life, although you are always above?
Out of my dreams? My hopes? My love?
Somehow I know it doesn’t matter, for freedom I cannot attain.
Sometimes we think this love is good enough for us, whom we despise.
Once here, however, we realize:
Shattering who we are brings only pain.
22 July 2020
Written for STRAND completely new (12) any theme any form Poetry Contest
Sponsored by Brian Strand
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