Spoken Too Soon
Last night
You were so cold to me
It was as if you never told me
You loved me
As if we never shared anything at all
You wouldn’t let me touch you
You wouldn’t even look at me
And when you did
All I saw in your eyes was
Disgust
Distrust
Simmering hate
Or so it seemed
I didn’t need you to speak
Everything your eyes told me, made my knees go weak
“What did I do?” I frantically plead
You ignored me
As if I never said a word
I whispered “I love you”
But my declaration fell on deaf ears
For a second
Just one split second
I could see you feeling my pain
But your sympathy quickly faded away
You asked me to leave
In you heart
I knew you couldn’t possibly mean what you just said
“I don’t love him” I said
He doesn’t make me feel the way you do
He never did
Never will
You just looked at me
With an unreadable expression on your face
With clouded eyes
So I kept talking
I told you it only happened once
I only did it for closure
For a sense of peace
To close the door
I left open for too long
You opened your mouth to speak
My stomach turned uneasily
Confusion then hurt displayed on your face
You finally said
"I was only mad at you for breaking my favorite mixtape"
I wish I could take back everything I just said
Just as the rage filled your eyes
The tears swiftly rolled down my cheeks
Right before the curses fell from your lips
I heard my mother say
“Ashli, wake up…it’s six
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