Love Poem: Still I Am Not
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Written by: Mahtab Bangalee

Still I Am Not

Silently you smiled from far peeping me
Smiled silently with mind of lonely 
Smiled from far seeing me
Peeped through the chink of door 
You’re looking what I had done
Smiled with luscious lips of bending new moon

You smiled on my wearing lungi on fatty belly 
From far you smiled soothingly
But when I wanted to be closed on your smiling 
then you moved away other side, 
You’re smiling on my activities that-
what I’d been eating, what I’d been drinking,
what I’d been watching, what I’d been reading
You smiled and peeped always me

when I wore official cloths 
then you smiled, 
when I got out to office 
then you smiled 
smiled an innocent fair smiling 
from far silently 
When I came back to home from office 
I found you staring on me with adoring smiling, 
You looked at me through window sash
How I’d been changing the official dress 
How I’d been refreshing myself
How I’d been showering by tube well water 

You stared me standing under coconut tree
Lamp of evening lit up in your home
Also my mother lit up the candle light, hurricane
Over the sky, God also lit up the evening light 
by the full moon and twinkling stars,
When I went to your ingenuous staring 
and said on that true light-  I love you. 
You left me without reply by smiling
This was much known to me 
and you went to your own home of mind 

By course of time- All moments had been passing on, 
passing on the day, the week and the month. 
You, only, gave smiling, 
Smiled on me with lovely face, graceful lips
This immaculate, flawless, graceful smiling 
I loved very much,
I said on uncountable true lights, 
on flawless shining of sun, many times- 
I, only, love you. Do you love me? 
No answer you gave me without silent smiling,
without sight of mysterious eyes,
without hypnotizing power of dancing body 
on your went back zigzag path of smiling

(Continuous) 

-October 31, 2018 Chattogram