The Diagnosis
I was diagnosed with cancer today
and my doctor sadly turned his head
as he walked away.
The usual speech about chemo was read
and then radiation was discussed as he
as a doctor was lead.
When he was done, he looked at me and
said well honey in the days ahead there
will be more information to come.
He asked, How do you feel about what I just
said?
I smiled at him and said, Well Doc; I don't
have an answer for that right off the top of
my head. We stand a chance if we start real
soon, but know that at this stage there is a
a little gloom.
In that moment fear left my mind and I started
to for once think about time. Time with my family
and time for a bucket list but most of all I felt
there was no time for the things I had already
missed.
I shook his hand and thanked him for his care
and I left the office with that thousand yard stare.
So much to do and so much to say but for me it
would not be today.
Today I will go the ice cream shop and eat that
that thousand calorie banana boat my doc called
slop. Then to the ocean where childhood grew and
fish like crazy before the tide withdrew.
I made my mind up I would not fall apart and that
today is when my life would have a brand new start.
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