Love Poem: The Ending of Love

The Ending of Love

I fell backwards
Seeing all in slow
motion
You standing, you
kissing her
So our love has run
its course
This fact sinks in
with a whisper
As you trail back to
me
Not knowing I've
seen
Your stuff is
waiting on the 
pavement when you
get back
All neatly folded
I thought that was
the end of 
that
No awkward lies, no
need for 
parting words
Just the end.

I'll wipe you out of
my memory 
while I stare at the
ceiling, as 
midnight consumes 
Glowing stars
pointing me back 
to the reality of
the unfeeling
I never feel much
anymore
I'm not human you
would say
Truth is
Its easier this way

The iridescent sky
leaks gold
And Angels slumber
in an 
eternal life of
bliss
As everyday gets
more difficult 
with it
I plan things in my
head
Amazing how much
time you 
took up
I twiddle my
fingers, agitated 
and restless
Life beckons within,
then a 
possibility of
happiness
Surely I should take
this

It was but one kiss,
I know this
Shadows loom with it
This tiny slight of
happiness
As the nights get
darker
I remember how
moonlight 
would flicker
as a candle on your
face

Little snippets
start to rise 
through the mud
Dirt that I burried
on top of you
I thought that was
the end
But little things
keep getting 
through

You hunted for the
Santa Claus 
film a week before
Christmas 
I didn't feel
festive and fell 
asleep through it
Waking up to
Christmas 
pudding and eggnog, 
that warm cuddly
festive feeling 
came back to me
It resides somewhere
still in me

In Paris we sprinted
from a five 
star restaurant bill
Wearing silk,
breaking my heels 
This night you
captured my 
heart 
as we ran through
Paris 
barefoot in the rain

The hotel room in
Venice had 
rats in the cupboard

We didn't want to
leave the bed 
So we made picture's
on the 
ceiling with lamp
light
Falling asleep to
softly slapping 
water, 
that night I Knew it
would only 
ever be you
It's still you

You skinned a cable
for the 
copper,made me a
bracelet 
The arthritis in my
wrist was 
driving me crazy

You drew me a
Christmas card 
every year, even
when you 
turned thirty

You were useless at
making me 
coffee

We were so care free
, 
look at what's
happened to me

These little things
keep 
wounding me, but
also make 
me happy

If I could take back
that kiss
It still would've
ended as this
You needed more than
I could 
give
In my world it
wasn't important
That you
Knew how I loved you
How I needed you
That every morning I
thanked 
God for you
You never knew
As I never told you
And now it's too
late to