The Feelings
Once in a great while your soul stands up and takes notice of someone and your inner voice screams yes that one. So loud your sure others heard.
When you are apart you can feel your soul weeping and full of sorrow.
There is a fight over who should take the lead, your head or your heart and your soul tried to mediate.
Your voice shakes like fall leaves being blow away in a storm. And your body follows suit every time she is near.
Its hard when you can see the future and feel the magic and yiur just in awe of the person you have stumbled acrossed with your dumb luck. You have to try and hold it back but you wear your heart on your sleeve. The problem with being open and honest you sometimes goof and let out the secrets of your heart.
Trying to hide the words that describe your feels, is like having them all tattooed on your tongue and biting them and choking them back for fear it will cost you the thing you would sale your very soul to have, but that's not an option cause your soul has deemed it property of her's where it barely listens you you anymore it is consumed like timber in a wildfire.
Lost in daydreams, watching, listening craving what you can see is so vivid your heart races knees become weak and your lost in translation of what you think the worst four letter word is. i
It scares you to think Love can be so intense and not evil as one would have you believe. The word love has never had so much meaning to it or behind it. And you finally understand caring so much for someone that you would break your own heart just to see them smile.
You finally understand what you thought was real in the past was not even close to the potent mess you find your self wrapped up in now. The confusion and practicality switch back and forth up becomes down yes switches with no and your world is spinning counter clockwise.
The words to express the jibbberish you hear in your head that make sense at the briefest monents fail you. you turn into a cave man barely able to make sounds because the nerves are so raw. You try to sound smart, sexy and put together the words to touch her heart but it just ends up sounding like you have tourette's. Embarrass yourself and have to try and explain that you are scared amd intimidated because the feelings you have have never been so real.
The beauty in her eyes, the way she looks at you like you are the only man in the world and makes you feel special in a good way. There is a light that shines from her that is brighter then an open flame and hotter then the sun. She makes you feel like a shooting star flying across the night sky rare and seen tugly seen as magical. She has filled a void of emptiness you have felt before. Just hearing her voice say your name melts your heart like ice cream on a summer day. You struggle to focus, losing sleep forgetting to eat.
Wanting to stop and smell the roses not concerned with the thorns to the point you don't notice the bright red stream dripping from your clenched hand as you smell the sweet aroma.
The grasps this woman has on your heart, your soul, is unlike any embrace you have felt before and you open your eyes and the reality of the realistic world shows you the fantasy you have dreamed of is a challenge you wont back down from, any heartache or pain is worth the overall pay off that your heart has seen into come. All the things you would endure. All the hurdles and moats and walls and draw bridges, dragons and monsters you would go through just to stand in front of the light that shines from her soul. Its like she is the light house guiding you into safe harbor during the storm as your ship is taking on water. You known the dangers of being lost at sea adrift and alone.there is always risk but also reward.
Craving the warmth of that light you can see so clearly. Like an angel send from the heavens above you have been given a chance to prove the power of one mans love and devotion and the loyalty, honesty and respect.
Proving your words and actions are on the straight narrow. like an arrow being on target and Cupid's shot was true. Hitting this guy so hard I have fallen into the deepend of the pool with lead weights dragging me to the bottom. Faith and my undying will to be apart of something amazing and full of magical surprises to come.
I'm not anything special but I can say no matter what this man has to endure to be lucky enough to hold your hand in the darkness of the night and just surrounded by moonlight. You are the moon and stars, you are the love in my sky the way you shine, your love lights up my life
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