The Perfect Gift
God gave me a gift
& I took it for granted.
He gave me the most
Perfect woman, on this whole entire planet.
I was in awe of her
She was one of a kind.
It was hard to believe
That she was mine.
She had beauty, brains
& is a wonderful mother.
Once I laid eyes on her
I could never love another.
She was my strength
When I was weak.
She was my voice
When I couldn't speak.
She was my sight
When couldn't see
My Leesah, My Leesah
Was everything to me.
I took her for granted
I stomped on her heart.
I refused her love
Now we are apart.
I never listened to her
When she had something to say.
I'd say, "Tell me later"
& be on my way.
She wanted attention
But I was too much into myself.
Because of my selfish ways
She's now with someone else.
I never hugged her
Rarely told her I love her.
We stayed in the same house
But rarely thought of her.
I had my on issues
So I ignored her attempts at love.
Because it was all about me
Me is all I thought of.
She talked about God
& how he keeps her in his grace
I'd say
"I'm watching the game, let me have my space"
She was always going to be here
That's what I believed.
Imagine my shock
When she told me to leave.
I left & then looked up to the sky
With tears in my eyes I screamed, "Why God Why"
I heard a voice that was deep
that answered my cries
It sounded quite angry, to my surprise
*****
He said:
You squandered the gift
That I gave you
Now you have the nerve
To ask me to save you.
You are just mad
Because you'll be by yourself.
You did this take the blame
It's not on anyone else
I gave you a woman
Who was my pride & joy
But you treated her like
An old disguarded toy.
You ignored her
When she wanted to talk about me.
Now you want her back
But I'll refuse you plea.
You were so selfish & mean
So I let her go.
I'm sorry to tell you
My answer is no.
*****
Now I'm without My Leesah
The love of my life.
The perfect woman
The perfect wife.
I lost her forever
Now I'm on my own.
I think of her quite often
When I'm alone.
I wonder how she's doing
Does she miss me too?
I doubt that she does
After all I put her through.
I'll live with this failure
& I hope I'll recover.
Forever & Ever
I'LL ALWAYS LOVE HER.
I Love You Leesah!
*****
~Author's Note~
I'm moving on now, no more poems about My Leesah.
I used this platform, as a way to vent about my loss.
Now it's time for Robert Cathey to live again. She's moved on, I need to too.
Thank you all for reading my thoughts.
I truly appreciate it.
Thank you all.
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