The Wake-Up Call
The Wake-Up Call
This day today, was actually scary. I got the wake-up call of my life, and it
wasn't by a fairy. It was a real-life calling that was brought to my attention. I
wasn't aware of the things in my life that I could be missin'. My feelings weren't
right and my mind wasn't straight; but since I got that call today, I'm running on
nothing but faith.
I was loving two people at once and living two lives. I don't know what I
was thinking, but it would be like you having two wives. I never really stopped to
think how it would feel to play your position; but I got this wake-up call today that
told me "watch my wishin'." to be careful what I wish for, because I could lose
something that means so much...but when you're in the "act of doin", you don't
think about that and such.
In reality, I was putting myself through more than I was anyone else. It was killing
me inside to know you were feeling the same way I felt. I was hurting you and I'm
sorry, but let me ease your mind. Since I got that wake-up call today, I'm no longer
blind. Yes, love is blind and can be very mean...it left me full of stress and I felt as if
I couldn't breathe.
How could my feelings be deep for someone that doesn't care? When my
baby had no pampers, he wasn't there...but everyone knew that you were. Cause'
when it all boils down to it, I'm asking myself, "How did this occur?" When it comes
to my babies, there's no doubt that they come first. So when I think about this
wake-up call, I realize I was cursed.
The devil was trying to work me out. But god knows me better, and that's
not what I'm about. I'm a strong woman, in need of a strong man, but the street I
was takin wasn't a good plan. It was full of the devil, but I'm not sayin' I wasn't to
blame. I just needed that wake-up call and today it came.
So, I thank you for the wake-up call and the words that you left me with.
I should have prayed sooner then I would have known that he was just a myth. I
thank you so much, for now I can see "The Real Me." I'm not scared of falling for
you now, cause' in your arms is where I want to be. Just promise one thing, and
don't fall on your word. If I give you my heart, will you hold onto it tight, don't break
it, and in return could I have yours to hold on tight to, promise not to break it, and
give you the love that you've always deserved.
By: Aleasha A. Martin
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