Time and Miles
Living for decades, I've felt my fair share of heartache.
Some scenes in my mind I yearn to relive, while others I wish I could erase - never to live again.
There's a saga that time has given me the gift to unravel and understand.
I'm more sagacious for knowing now.
Why we had to let each other go, why we didn't work out.
Despite my best attempt, I couldn't have been the one for you.
Before it was muddy where now it's clear
Sinking, drowning, lonely, listless days, wondering where we went wrong
After playing make-believe in my head we were meant for each other for far too long.
With time and distance, we have both found there are others. When we foolishly thought there could never be another.
Believe it or not, we made it through. There's someone else to bolster the wind in my sails. He renews my passion and spirit. Babe, you must know I hated to see us fail.
I am regaining my zeal where before I was severely withdrawn. Saying goodbye to you rendered me defiant, angry - frail.
You live in my heart though our passion was snuffed out. Time, the teacher, has taught me, I measure up and I count.
I was worried there for some time. Yes, there was lingering doubt.
Time and miles have taught me I have some smiles to share and laughs welled up waiting to erupt.
Time and miles mean I don't have to be bitter, shut down, aloof and alone.
Grateful for the blank canvas before me
And fresh eyes to see
Missing you no longer clouds my view
This is what time and the miles have done for me.
Lori Jayne Steindorf Copyright November 29, 2019
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