Trying To Survive
I'm just trying to survive
In a world that wants to tear me apart
I've been crying inside
Now I'm just trying to repair my heart
I smile for the world, because they won't understand the pain underneath
I try and give my heart, but I'm not sure you're worth another piece
A failure, criminal and waste of space, I got told I'd be another one
They counted me out, but got their numbers wrong
I've been drug free my whole life
Had no one to hug me on cold nights
I faced my demons head on, I couldn't hide
Made it through obstacles that most wouldn't survive
Trapped inside a room, depression is going to war with me
Looking out of the window, hoping there's more to see
I make the pad bleed, in revenge because the world tortured me
I'll fake a smile until my eyes are water free
My ex didn't deserve my time, effort, or heart it seems
Apparently she came with love
But caused more pain than good
She found comfort with another man, while I had my darkest dreams
I still hope she's happy, I wish her nothing but the best
My heart's bleeding because she cut my chest
She left my heart broken, so people get to touch it less
I have more to say, but don't wish to discuss the rest
I've bounced back from worse, even if it still hurts sometimes
Walking in the rain, wondering if I deserve sunshine
I may not be the best poet because of how I word some rhymes
I've been wrong for writing about people who weren't worth one line
I've battled demons and been through a few wars
I'm just trying to make it to tomorrow without any new scars
I'm lost in the maze but I'll make it out
My misery raised me up, but it was meant to take me down
I'm just trying to survive
In a world that wants to tear me apart
I've been crying inside
Now I'm just trying to repair my heart
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