Love Poem: under the pier 2 -

under the pier 2 -

why here?
     why this way ... is it a message just for me??
          no note, no signs of impending doom ...
     you were all smiles this morning, mundane habits adhered to

          "have a good day, Sweetness - I love you"
     nose rub and a kiss, (the kiss WAS deeper than usual)
and in your eyes ... something ... odd
     a touch of darkness, distance, chill ...

     it didn't strike me then, but now ... a sick feeling deep-down
oh, dear God, did I miss something?!?
     not like me ... not at ALL ...
          I'm usually so perceptive, so attuned - especially to you ... to US

     your cold skin, shiny porcelain in the moonlight
          so horridly beautiful, so exquisitely horrid, (I retch)
     they place you tenderly in a plastic bag, zipping it slowly
I will hate that sound now ... forever.