Understanding (The Night Before Parole)
Sometimes I close my eyes real tight and in the darkness I do find
Answers to the many questions that dwell inside my mind
It seems that in the darkness I can more clearly see
What has been is not what is or will someday be
Some memories last way to long while others fade to fast
Somethings in life drag on forever and others never last
There is no right there is no wrong what is left and right
It’s all just an illusion that we hold inside our sight
I've been rich and I've been poor and know it is no joke
Many people you cross in life are a different type of folk
Some games are made for winning and others made to lose
Sometimes in life you just can't help but be full of the blues
Yesterday is gone forever and tomorrow you just can't tell
That’s why living in today is the way to break the spell
The spells are born from the demons that live inside your ghost
And as you look into the mirror they are the ones you hate the most
You want to scream you want cry you want to cuss and fight
But instead you curl up on your rack for one last sleepless night
Your muscles ache your soul is tired and your heart it feels real sore
Sometimes it’s hard to stay in-tune with what it is all for
It’s so once again you can hold your head up high
Know that you have earned the right to look through your mirrors eyes
Life is short and fading fast I can feel it in my bones
The time has come to make myself a place I can call home
Sometimes in life it seems that no matter what price we pay
Those we love with all our hearts just start to fade away
I have laughed and I have cried and through them both I've found
There is no-body else to blame for I have let you down
My love has seemed to let you down I have failed to hold your heart
And inside I feel like dying as I feel us drift apart
Funny how the mind does work as it twist and bends
The fact is I'm not losing my lover I'm regaining my friend
Written for my dearest friend
My Wife Antoinette the last
night that I spent in prison.
That was almost 5 years ago.
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