What Happened When You Left
Filled with karma into the darkness
I made bad decisions that turned into nightmares.
You left me with guilt, wishing I never had a life.
You left me there, on the bed, sweat coming down my head, wanting you some more.
But you left me alone.
Saying what have I done, just throw myself into the sun
I hated what I've become
Letting you change me just to let out some desire I once had for you.
Now I have no shame, it’s stuck and your throat and you're choking,
I hope you die!!!!
You said you can't stand me but still love me
Love has a cost and your pay is overdue.
My heart is broken and the last words that come out of you is "what up."
The sky is what's up but my heart, mind and soul is going down.
Not forgiving my self when I should, feeling sorry for you when I shouldn't.
It's been 2 months and the phone has been silent.
I was ready to say goodbye, but I gave myself one more chance
and I sit, I stand, I don't understand.
The life we had can had been the life we could have had forever.
Cheating didn't have to be an option, but a no option
Excuse me let me rephrase.........
Temptation is a mother, and desire is an "itch",
but I never knew it would happen like this
You go through my mind like a movie on a screen
From beginning to end, we were lovers till the end.
We stayed together like brothers till the end.
But now you claim that our love is done,
Imaginary love that was never won.
So let me be the one to congratulate you on loving someone not perfect.
I admit I'm not perfect, but what is perfect, when we didn't even have perfect love.
Now walk out the door to the one you call, "Mr. Lover."
Leave my heart on the floor.
You say you can't live without me, then someday we'll have trust
MAYBE!!!!!
Give it time would be the last thing on my mind, our love was not ready
But to say, when was it ever ready????
You explain to me that trust is optional but trust is the only option.
So walk out of my life and be happy
As I sit in my corner, hating life to the fullest,
I wait for my true love to come........
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