What It Is
That moment when alone meets loneliness
From my mind to my heart it goes
Churning in me a deep hopelessness
Something larger than a feeling
But smaller than what I’m worth to you
There’s a break in your love
Maybe it’s gone all together
But what about your promise for us forever
Guess vows don’t mean anything anymore
Fainting I fall to the floor
You’re done with me
Trash to discard
Like a cigarette bud to the ground
Stepped on to stop the spark
But I’m not that lucky
Your spark is out, but mine has started a fire
And it rages a war against the world we’ve created together
No more happiness
Joy to go up in flames
The urge to run kicks in
As you kick me again
“Just know what this is,” you say
And another fear stacks on top of another tear
Just give up
Like that’s the thought you wish I’d chase
You’re pushing me away
But do I stay?
To be walked all over?
Yes, I’ll stay
Because this love is more than the hurt you give
How generous you are
And you just keep giving
And I’ll just keep taking
How selfish a transaction
That will not end
Until you’re strong enough to say
“It’s over.”
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