When Love Knocks
When I put my front down
And close my eyes
I realize how much the pain hurts
And that love never dies
When I put my front down
Tears start to swell in my eyes
I wipe them away quickly
So you cannot see my demise
When I put my front down
I can’t help but cry;
I thought it was over
But subconsciously I still love you
I feel so shameful
I do not know what to do
When I put my front down,
The world sees me as I am
In the hours that I am more drunk than high
I beckon, beckon you to my side
But you do not care
Nor should I
But what else can I do
When I subconsciously cannot stop loving you
Where can I turn when I am feeling lonely inside
I look for you in certain places
I look for you in new faces
But alas you are never there
I am tired of this game
This game was not fun
I run everywhere, looking for the sun
The sun that used to beam inside my heart
Before lust took over our lives
And tore everything apart
I am endlessly trending water now,
Just trying to make it by
But the problem here baby
I do not know how to swim,
I am scared I will die
You threw me in the ocean
The ocean of my own tears
Now I feel as if I am drowning
Drowning in all these fears
My heart, under water
I can’t find which way is up
I am scared
Scared to meet a better you
Scared that they will do the things you did
When love knocks at my door, I push her away
I am too scared
Too scared to have my happiness taken away again
One day, I hope it will all be okay again
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