When You Left
Did you know
That when you left
You took A large piece of me with you
Its been almost a year now
And I wonder
Do you think of me as often as I think of you
My mind comprehends why
But sadness and loss linger
Because my heart will never understand
Nothing without you has grown easier
I don't miss you less, I don't love you less
I am just used to the pain now
Our last week together stuck in my mind
squeezing out every possible moment
Just to be together
I sit often in that stand of pines
Where we made love, and then both sobbed together
Knowing that we would no longer see each other daily
I cry just as hard today
I don't have to look hard to find you
your fingerprints are all over my being
My emotions ebb and flow
You're gone and I'm living in hell
The one constant is the way my entire being screams out for you
Your words haunt me
"I don't know what to do without you"
"I still think we will wind up together"
Again I understand
Us together would hurt and affect too many others
But do you still feel the same way
Your pop-ins
Tell me that you do
Your being still screams for me
You tell me of your misery
You explain how you fill your time because I'm not there
You beg me to understand that you love me too
Twice now you have opened up
To me, about your circumstance
About your unfulfillment and constant longing
Does it sound as twisted in your ears as mine
Hearing about how you want the one your with
To be more like the one you want
You explain how the aura
of your life
is not the reality of it
You regale with stories
of looking for passion in work
because there is no passion anywhere else in your life
When you saw me at that run
Did your heart squeeze as tightly as mine did
Did you die inside as I did because we had to share each other with others
When you touched my arm
Did a thousand emotions all come rushing in at once
Did everything else fade to the feeling of just wanting to hold each other again
There's still a boy who writes you
He does not know how not to
He doesn't know how not to love you
Would we have used our time more wisely
If we knew that when we met I stopped becoming part of your future
And started speeding towards becoming part of your past
Miles and miles separate us
but you are close each and every moment
I think of you so often it is like you never left
You took a large part of me with you
I do not pray for your failure, be happy
I was a person who wanted nothing more than to make you happy
Love of a Lifetime
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