When You Were Born
When you were born
I was sure you were
the most remarkable thing
on the planet
as you grew I knew it was true
everything I had experienced paled
in the light of who you were
and the privilege of knowing you
an empty life became full
darkness became light
no thing men value could compare
to what is you
How many cries beneath those eyes
how much of you will I ever see
guess you're a lot like me
I have never celebrated my body
I never cried for you
I shared nothing
but you asked me to
and I never asked you
I told you no stories
for I cannot share the pain
as I was taught
that my outside should never betray
my inside
What I feel I must never show
so that you would never know
"to be seen and not heard "
not allowed to speak any word
your body is for service
close your eyes and MIND (behave)
I'm sorry my children that
I gave this legacy to you
the mother you never knew
I have so few memories of kindness
and nearly none of love
I have tried to give you
all that I had and
I don't believe in myself that
it could ever be enough
I have been trying all my life
to learn how to love
I must let you go
to make this journey yourselves
I would be privileged
to make this journey with you
and I really don't want
you focused on the past anyway
I want you looking for love
and happiness cause I'm still
looking for it too
but you all have given
my happy memories
(and I still think for you they were too few)
Psalm 139
3 For you formed my inward parts;
you knitted me together in my mother's womb.
14 I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Wonderful are your works;
my soul knows it very well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you,
when I was being made in secret,
intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed substance;
in your book were written, every one of them,
the days that were formed for me,
when as yet there was none of them.
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