Why?
Today is an anniversary for me,
although there will be no smiles, no cheers, no congratulations.
This is the anniversary where there are no words to say,
It's when I remember someone, who passed away.
He was very close to me,
let me open up to you, so you can see.
He was the son of my mother,
in other words, he was my brother.
Let me paint a picture for you of what we had,
but be warned, this is sad.
From the ages of 10 to 12, he said nothing, not even a mutter.
He was ridiculed by classmates, because he had a stutter.
After that, life was a hard, scary dream.
One in which he had no confidence or self esteem.
All of this nightmare turned into a reality,
because of our ignorance and brutality.
He grew up big and strong,
but you could see in his eyes, there is something wrong.
He was 6'2'' and had a body to envy
At age 22 he was what every man wanted to be.
He made himself that way, to have a protective shell,
under his skin, you could see he wasn't well.
He had so very many friends, that he did neglect,
he couldn't get close to people, he meant no disrespect.
He tried so hard at so many things,
but at a young age, cruelty snipped his wings.
Inside he was afraid so he showed no expression,
looking back, I now see the face of deep depression.
I talked to him and said it's safe and sound,
so he gave it a chance and he came around.
One day he became the father,
of a very beautiful daughter.
His world revolved around his daughter and girlfriend,
but quickly things started to descend.
"Daddy I want you to be with me,"
but he couldn't, she was wealthy, and got full custody.
I got a call at work, but orders are backing up you see,
I couldn't answer, all he wanted to say was "help me."
In this world he saw only pain with no light,
So he ended his life that fateful night.
I want one more chance to answer that phone.
I want one more chance to hug you when you come home.
I miss you more than my tears and words can say,
I had you for 16 years, and for that I am grateful in every way,
When I pray, I will always ask for just one more day.
I miss and love you so much, I just wanted you to know that, ok.
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