Wisdom?
i felt He wasn`t listening
when i knelt beside my bed
before i laid down on my pillow
the days cares filled my head
why did that have to happen?
i`m a good person why?
there on my knees that night
i felt that i might cry
i do unto others
as i`d like to have done
why all this fear and worry
i`ve not hurt anyone
my stomach knotted my tears fell
i thought my heart might break
what else do you want of me?
what else can i take?
this is all
too many burdens for me
help me understand
why all this must be
crying all in then
i sank upon the floor
please dear Jesus i don`t think
i can handle anymore
i`ll let go of this soon
i promise to give it to you
if you`ll just explain why?
and what am i to do?
was i such a child in Him
in my house in my room
right there and then
my whole life changed
in a flash of light
He was kneeling in prayer
in Gethsemane that night
He was asking questions too
one i`d just asked of Him
He was to be crucified
a final sacrifice for sin
He`d asked His disciples
to watch with Him and stay
but they fell asleep too tired
to kneel with Him and pray
i heard myself quetioning Him
why would you do this give your life for my sin?
"I LOVE YOU DEAR SO MUCH"
my precious savior explained
"i`m dying for the world
to make white the blackest sin
i`m sacrificing my life
no greater love than this
to lie down life for another
life for death my gift"
then i clearly understood
He took the cross in my place
while i`d been whining His holy blood
fell as sweat upon His face
i woke like from a dream
i`ll not lose dreams awful sight
i realized with great shame
my day had been alright
i prayed a new prayer of thanksgiving
for loving me so unselfishly
i pray all hearts open to the love of God
God`s love waits patiently
He could have chosen not to die
that day on calvarys hill
He did ask to be delivered
but surrendered to His Fathers will
now i count it all joy
when troubles come my way
i kneel beside my bed each night
and with a thankful heart i pray
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