Without you
I don’t know what I’d do, if one day I found out I wouldn’t live with you, you wouldn’t be 10 steps down the hall, in fact you wouldn’t be there at all, your sheets would be empty, along with your room, and id never ask to borrow your perfume, because it would be gone, in another house, in another room, and id have to pick up my phone anytime I wanted to speak to you, you would be close, but you would still be far, I think that’s what would be hard, if you go I do too, because I can’t imagine living my life without you, you were the biggest part, the most important to me, the only person I ever wanted to see, sometimes it was like you were all I had left, and I wouldn’t have it any other way, because deep down I know it would hurt not to see you every day, your my sister, my favourite but my only, and home wouldn’t be the same without you beside me, so in another life, maybe we wouldn’t experience the pain we went through, because I don’t want that for you, I know you don’t tell me, but I do see how much it hurts you, separated for 2 different lives like we’ve lived all along, but living a life without you just feels wrong, it’s something I couldn’t do, I could never live a life without you, to know your somewhere out there, some place far from my own, and we would both have a different perspective on what each called home, I love you and I always will, but for some reason I never let them words spill, I could never tell you, but not because they aren’t true, even though I couldn’t live a life without you, it doesn’t mean that I want to, it hurts the most knowing your hurting too, and if I could, I would take all that hurt from you, I love you more then you do, but not as much as happy looks on you, but one day, we will go our separate ways, and we will experience our best days, but not side by side, because we will have to grow, but to walk in a life without you, is something I hope I never know,
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