Wonder
There's not much for me
to do now
except to sit here
and wonder how
I arrived at where I am today
and I have to say
I am afraid
that the best of times
have past me by
gone...in a blink of an eye
break down and cry
huh all the time
crying for the good times that past
and the bad times that have carried on
crying for the happy moments
and the sad ones that will never be gone
remembering so much
yet forgetting everything
all the time your wondering
how to really love
you think you know
but it's all an illusion
it's wrapped up in so much damn confusion
then it's went so far
you don't see anyway out
you look around
and all you see is doubt
you begin to realize
it's you that's changed
your life got rearranged
how, why, where, and when
you don't know exactly
but that's what it did
then it hits you
now what you must do
this has to be fixed
and no one can do it but you
so you leave, and never look back
you can forgive but will never forget
where you've been
you turn around only briefly to see
just how for you've come
those fears were finally faced
time to move on...
nothing to do now
but sit here
and wonder how
I can never seem to
get my head out of the clouds
my thoughts everyday
turn to him so far away
he's always been the one
I've longed to hold
and by just looking deep
into his eyes
never needing to be told
how much he loves me
cause I'd already know
god I do need him so
I miss everything about him
his touch, smile, and sound of his voice
it's like I no longer have a choice
I have to raise my voice
and let it be heard
I know that I have to take this chance
or let it slip away once and for all
forever
yes I'm scared of the unknown
my fears and tears though
are now being outweighed
because of the love I have for him
I don't want to keep sitting here
with nothing to do
I no longer want to wonder
I know I'm in love with you
but I wonder so much
do you still feel it to
I need to know for sure
so I can move on...
with or without you here
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